Here I Am
This will probably be something I talk a lot about as I walk down this road. I have fought the calling to clergy for some time. YHWH was knocking and I kept hiding under the bed, hoping it would stop.
YHVH: Carly — where are you.
Carly: Slicha, Carly lo po!
I understand more and more why in the Torah when YHVH calls to someone the question is “where are you?” The response is always, “here I am.” As the reality of the calling becomes more concrete, and the roads to acheive it have become available — I’ve been able to say, “Here I Am.”
Opening myself to the opportunity to serve YHVH and more specifically the Shekhinah is exciting and terrifying. Recreating traditions to better serve the Divine Feminine and the Divine as feminine is also exciting and terrifying.
I see this new awareness as a coming of age for me. I am entering into a new phase of life. I am no longer the young girl — the Sabbath Bride. I have reached maturity and am ready to create. I am ready to inspire as well as be inspired.
It is noon. It is the fullness of the moon. It is the turning of spring to summer. It is the beginning and the end.
Here I Am. הנה אני
[tags]kohenet, traditions, priestess, training[/tags]