Peeling a Pomegranate

I was asked last night where the line between Renewal or Eco-Jew and Jewitch is. My immediate answer was, “Magick.”

Of course, during this whole conversation about my life as a Jewitch, I avoided the subject until that moment. I find it unbelievably difficult to talk about magick or magickal experiences with people, even Pagan friends. It seems like talking about it puts human limitations on experiences that are beyond human. Aspecting, spiritual/fey/elemental beings, energy work, pathworking, spellwork — all of these things are part and parcel of my life, but I can’t talk about them.

Perfect example is an experience I had last year after a ritual. I wandered off into the nearby woods because I kept seeing what appeared to be verdant, golden clearing about 50′ back. I didn’t really say anything to the other people, I just walked back there. Here’s where things get hard to explain. The simplest way to describe it, is that I was kidnapped by fairies. That however, does not begin to describe or explain what happened.

When I finally heard people calling my name about 15 minutes later, and apparently they had been calling me for several minutes before I heard them, I had to actually ask permission to leave. I seriously couldn’t find my way the 50′ feet back until I did, and then the way was clear.

I tried to explain it to people and they just kind of looked at me. Who knows, maybe I just had a mini-stroke.

What I do know is that talking about what makes me a witch, instead of just a earth-concious Jew, is next to impossible. There’s no one thing. It’s who I am, and how I interact with the world around me. I have a simple definition of magick, but not of living a magickal life. I just don’t know how to put these things into words that have meaning.

Maybe that’s the difference. Living a magickal life instead of just practicing magick.